Starting over with everything..

I lived and worked in Japan for a long time and have come back in a time of economic and ever present family drama to try and gain a foothold in my so-called home country. Armed with nothing but dog fur, a crappy car, a laptop that hates me, I try to see how far I can get.

Monday, October 30, 2006

Osei, osei, osei, osei!!!!!!!!

Sunday, October 29, 2006


I've been feeling stranger than usual, lately. I'm hopped-up on so many pain pills I should be flying right now. Guess I need to lose more weigh because flight has been coming and going periodically. Had tooth #3 pulled last Wednesday with really bad after-effects. If you could peel the top layer of skin off of one or your gums, then run a large wet cat covered in salt over that area you can get the gist of how I feel when the meds wear off. Thus why I've been popping tylenol like there is no tomorrow. Forgive me kidneys, I love you but you'll hafta suffer to make mommy feel better.

On the plus side, I've been pretty looped out at moments, normally when I'm on my lonesome, but occassionally in the presence of people who just think I'm crazy. I hide my true craziness elsewhere. It's like a mini-vacay that I sorely need.

I ended up cancelling plans for a Halloween party, partly due to the tooth and partly due to the fact my costume which was kick-ass was sent back to my brother's house because the post office worker who posted it was a retard. Unfortunate, but at least I will have a kick ass outfit for next year.

Sunday, I got to go to a really cool festival in Sasebo called Yosakoi. It was one of the best festivals I'd ever been to here. Basically dance groups from all over Japan come and dance their little hearts out in more or less a traditional/modern Japanese-drill team style. They wear really colorful costumes and have crazy hair and/or make-up. It's kinda rare to see people so happy and energetic, so to see a large number of Japanese people be super happy and super energetic was great and really infectious. I'll post pictures later on this as I'm at school typing when I should be making a yearly plan for one of the classes I teach.

After the festival me and the festival-goers I was with went to a onsen south of where I live to soak all our troubles away and it damn near worked. Tooth pain (or shall I say lack of tooth pain) was great foe. It was a great day and I had semi-great sleep. I did have a great dream about cake. Man, that was some delicious cake. Later on, I woke up in the middle of the night crying because my jaw hurt so badly and after I fell back asleep I woke-up late for work. Oh well.. I can't wait to get pictures of my neices from Halloween. Haley is gonna be a Cheetah girl or Monster princess? She wasn't making too much sense when I talked to her. Megan on the other hand knew she was going to be Aurora, what I can only assume to be Sleeping Beauty. I felt really outta touch when talking to them. I realize how much I miss being here when Haley said, "you don't know the Cheetah girls, do you?" Little smarty pants. I'll show her!

I think I should go as I'm getting loopy again. I'll try to post pictures later, though I may have to do it tomorrow as I have a Halloween party at my English conversation class today. Love ya'll and have a Happy Halloween!!!!

Friday, October 20, 2006

More scuba pics

Swimmin' wit da fishes.
Workin' da fro

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Injury by shoe

I haven't blogged in a awhile. I haven't really had a whole lot to say recently. My head is really been in a strange kind of fog and I've really been trying to soak up which direction I should go to get out of it, but frankly I think I needed the fog so I just stayed put for a bit.
I've been thinking a lot about my future recently. I think I've been tentatively offered a position with my city, probably doing the same thing or just teaching at elementary schools for the next two years. It'll actually be harder than what I am doing, but I think I'm up for that challenge... maybe. I've also been thinking about home a lot. A big part of me wants to go back and get my masters or just another degree in teaching, but I don't know if I wanna spend the time back as a student. Having to deal with all the BS and bureaucracy that follows.

Lately, I've been a bit frustrated with the Japanese system of education. I have one special needs student named Koki that will be going into high school next year. And does he get to go to the one handicapp school in my prefecture? No, why because he scored too high on the test. He can't function in any of the normal classes here, but just because he scored too high he has to try to get into a normal high school my normal kids have problems getting into.

The teacher that sits next to me just got an injury on her hand because a student that was trying to ditch school threw her shoe at her. She was sitting there half stunned and half laughing that she has a shoe injury. Kids here are crazy sometimes. There are so many kids that just don't want to go to school. Everyone says it's a social problem, the kids are too shy, but I think the real problem is the kids hate the form of school here so much and since everyone will assume the former they choose not to go. Anyway...

I should know where I wanna go by now, no? I have so many ambitions and dreams but they all seem so far off. I'm just gonna focus on home right now. For those who I haven't told from home who actually read this, there should be two of you, I'll be going home on the 20th of December. I'm at times almost giddy about going back for the visit. I'm close to counting the days, but I won't just yet because then it will feel like forever.

Besides work and work, I've been not doing a whole hell of a lot because I've felt pretty ill physically. I got some tests done and everything checked out okay, so that kinda sucks but oh well. I just wish for once I could get some strange ass disease that's caught early enough so I can survive, but lasts long enough to get me back to my girlish figure of 16. Hey Santa, you hear that? I'm feeling a bit better, but I have a big weekend of DEEEEP cleaning to see if maybe it's my apartment making me ill.

I'm gonna get going and try to get some work done.