Starting over with everything..

I lived and worked in Japan for a long time and have come back in a time of economic and ever present family drama to try and gain a foothold in my so-called home country. Armed with nothing but dog fur, a crappy car, a laptop that hates me, I try to see how far I can get.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Today's suggested activity


Haaaaaahmmmmmmrrrrraaah

I don't know what's going on lately. I'm restless, crazy, lazy, but active, hungry for sweets, but not hungry at all, etc... I feel like I've been travelling in a daze for about two weeks or so. It's a strange daze in which I feel that the remote to my life has been stuck in fast forward for a bit and the tracking on the tape is a little fuzzy. Yes, I still work with video. I'm not a DVD kinda girl. Gaah! I'm gonna make a cake.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Funny-strange, not funny-haha

Today was my Junior High School graduation ceremony. Didn't you know Japan has a graduation ceremony everytime you switch schools, nursery school=> kindergarten=> elementary school => junior high school=> high school / trade school=> university/the rest of your life. It's tedious to say the least. All I could think of today was, god I'm freezing, I'm so cold. If I were any colder parts of me would be gangrenous. I wasn't thinking, 'oh how sad and proud I am of all these fine students' or 'I can't believe I've taught some of these kids through 4 grades now.' I barely cared.

I have a few students that I really loved and actually knew their names. I just find that I'm detached towards the end of the year for the people who leave JHS because of the type of person they act like. For the most part, I can't even blame them. The come from elementary school, fresh faced, creative and caring students, ready to learn and absorb the world. Instead of nurturing that uniquiness, they are treated like gortex pinatas that take three years to get beaten down to be the exact mold of each other. It's heart wrenching and if I think about it too much I get really upset. I do have some students that haven't totally gotten beaten to a pulp quite yet. I'll post pictures probably in a week or so as my computer has limited space on it and I have to wait til pay day to get my external hard drive. I took pictures with the majority of my favorites. Yes, teachers have favorite. Get over it, it's a fact of life, but the teacher's pets aren't always the one's you think they are.

I pretty much love all of my communications class (the special needs class). I sadly hadn't taught them for about 3 months due to a heavy elementary school schedule, but they are absolutely incredible. They are little balls of energy, some which have very hard to find 'on' switches. They brightened my day everytime I got to see them. They tried hard, in spite of their disabilies and warmed everyone's heart with their smiles and laughter. They were smart too. Shockingly they would understand things that not even their "normal" counterparts would. Three of the 8 or so students in that class, graduated this year, so I won't be seeing them for a long time. I suspect the class will be a lot quieter next year also. It was wonderful to see their mother's so proud and happy of their kids.

Other than that their a handful of kids, who I adored because of their creativity, their drive, their personality, but I'll write about them when I put the pictures up. Now, I have to go back to work and try and look busy. I have things to do, but my head's in too many places to try and do them.